What I think is the love of my life, turns into a toxic relationship. At first I think I met my soulmate. We travel around the world and we’re planning kids. But my nervous system is non stop in a fight-or-flight mode. He starts dating a 21-year-old woman (14 years younger than me) and asks me to open the relationship. This is when I finally have strength to leave. I need a lot of time to heal from it. I lose 10kg. I struggle to trust men again. I am also at my lowest with money. I have just $1,000 in my bank account.